My Heart .

Subject: My Heart . Fri Mar 13, 2009 4:43 pm

My Heart

I thought I was over
All these feelings I hold
I thought everything was better
Pretending is getting old.

I said I was happy
But you couldn't see
The Hate inside
Was killing me.

I thought I could control it
I thought it was done
But now I realize
Depression has won.

You never understood
The feelings bottled up inside
The hate and the pain
In my heart is where it hides.

All the pain you have me
Was too much for me to take
You thought I was happy
The smile was fake.

I find myself alone
My own best friend
I hate the constant quiet
The darkness in the end.

I have no one to trust
Many knives in my back
I should have walked away
And ability which I lack.

The betrayers and the betrayed
I've met in my life
It all ends the same
With a wrist and a knife.

You can only cry so much
Before the tears run dry
Red eyes watch the stars
As the clouds drift by.

You hurt me again
My life is the cost
For everytime I gambled
And everytime I lost.

Innocence
In its purest form
The laughter and smiles
Is what I long for.

Pain through out the day
Contentment at night
But dreams will always fade
Before the time is right.

All my biggest battles
I am forced to fight alone
When will I be saved
And find happiness of my own?

For now I am here
Alone with my thoughts
While deep inside
My heart rots.